Yesterday I drove by my old homestead--or,
I should say, one of my old homesteads. Specifically, the one my
family and I moved into when I was eleven and out of when I was sixteen.
Actually, "old homestead" is not accurate,
since that term conjures up images of a gracious manor with stately columns,
a wide veranda, and acres of green lawn.
Not even close.
This particular old homestead was a
small, cramped apartment over a bakery shop that my mother and aunt operated
during WWII, the Big One, while my uncle was fighting the Axis Menace in
Salerno and Anzio, and my dad, who was too old for the draft, was working
on an assembly line in a local defense plant.
"Bakery" was as much of a misnomer as
"homestead," since none of the products offered for sale were baked on
the premises. They were supplied, as part of the sales deal, by the former
owner who had opened a new bakeshop across town. The man had
no imagination whatsoever. His idea of a holiday confection, for
example, was his everyday, plebeian loaf cake "decorated" with a single
word in block print: THANKSGIVING, HALLOWEEN, EASTER-- whatever special
day the calendar proclaimed. Maybe he wasn't artistic and didn't
know how to make little icing rosettes or turkeys, pumpkins or bunnies;
but would it have killed him to at least slap the word "HAPPY" in front
of the holiday designation?
His other products were equally
unappealing. The pies all had concave centers, the drop cookies looked
as though they had been, the sugar cookies were soggy, the brownies crisp
and dry. I can remember my mother and my aunt constantly rearranging
these disasters in the display window, desperately seeking configurations
that would hide their defects. An impossible dream. My mom
would then stand by the window all day, watching the goods go stale, her
brow furrowed, her mouth grim. I'm still not sure which discouraged
customers more--the unpalatable pastries or my mother's scowl. She
got to practice it a lot, since the store was open from 8:00 AM to 10:00
PM, six days a week. Only the Sunday blue laws in effect back then saved
my mom and aunt from a seven-day work week. Sunday was a day of rest-except
for all that house cleaning, laundry, and bill paying.
No vacations. No sick leave.
No pension plan. No holiday bonuses. The only "perk" was all
the unappealing stale pastry we could eat.
Certainly the upstairs apartment couldn't
qualify as a benefit. It consisted of a kitchen, one bathroom, and
three other rooms, all of which had to serve as bedrooms. I was taking
piano lessons, which my parents could not afford; but they were convinced
I was a musical genius. More wrong they couldn't have been!
At any rate, since we had no living room, I had to share my tiny bedroom
with a large upright piano. It loomed over my tiny bed, and I was
half convinced it would crush me in my sleep if I didn't practice my requisite
hour per day.
Finally, after five years of red ink
instead of sweet profits, my family decided to cut their losses and sell
the store, along with the less-than-palatial living quarters above it.
Oh, happy day!
A variety of small businesses have occupied
those premises since then--a produce stand, a convenience store, a photocopy
center, and most recently a fishing tackle shop.
When I drove by yesterday, I saw a large sign
outside what used to be my bedroom window. It read, LIVE BAIT.
Talk about your humble beginnings.